However!
(For you- my dream child)

Privacy was my first love.

Not anymore. By choice.

I choose to share that little bed with you,see you lie on my bosom and sleep peacefully. I wonder if you will have such peace all life.If I can protect you from the big bad world,like I do now.I wonder if you will grow up to be a nice young gentleman. Smart and Sauve. I wonder.

i love everything about you. Someway or the other.
I adore the way you kick. The way you throw tantrums if I don’t get you what you want. I wonder if you will become one of those rough and tough men I don’t particularly like.

I love the way you want to hold the mobile near your ears and chat away as if there was someone on the other side and you have something so important to say.

I love it when you are so are fascinated with my hair.You pull them close to your face, as if you would like to have them. I wonder if you will be romantic. Write poetry for your woman.

You hurt me with the toy cars that you are crazy about. I wonder if you,like your dad will work with cars. Your toys cruise on my thighs,my eyes,my arms. I chide when you run it over my nose to pain me.

I watch in awe as you place your palm slowly against the walls and try to get up. Falter. And get up again.

I cry when I see your laughter fill our home with life. When cacophony becomes music to us. I’m irritated when you prefer to be with dad than i. I hate it when I don’t hear your blabber all day.

I sit back and see you. See you smile. Cry. Play. Kiss. I Long for me when im away and you make those nonsical sounds over the phone. And love it when you slap me hard on days that i don’t get back home on time.

I wonder if you remember me watching you grow up? With such admiration. With such hope.You snatch the pen as i write this.I wonder if you will cherish this beautiful moment.

Someday I will tell you how I hate the fact that you are big and grown up. And show this piece of writing to you. You might laugh and call it sentimental crap.

I wonder what you will grow up to be? And how?

However,iam very sure that you will give me the privacy I had earlier on. However,it wont be my choice,then.

Just the way I have to your granny.