Sanjoli !– Part III.
(For you Oshi)

The expression of disgust that he must have expounded as hatred ; I refer to it as “Beebhatsya” ....Exactly the way these overpowering waves beat upon the arrogant sea as if teaching the ocean;lessons of higher realms of love.

As the rivers merged onto the ocean’s disembodied spirit to attain supereme divnity,I let my “atma” culminate with my eccentric “Deh”and i moved about in an unpatterned pattern ,rthymatically at times and otherwise too to co-ordinate with my chaotic heart.

Endowed with the graceful “Nritya kala” is nature too....And nature like life clings to chaos and change,expressing pain that accompanies dynamism in the most exoctic fashion.

My natya is a tribute to my god,the sea....“arpan” of a devotee who learnt to live the difference facets of human bhava with dance.But for dance I have no other tool to succintly & precisely indicate what my soul feels.

And my sole inspirtation has been the Ocean....and its splenderous vastenss.
The sea and of course him. He alone had the capacity to evoke such intense passion in me...Him...As the memories of life with him lingered on, time went still.

My fingertips moved about touching the cold breeze; and i took pride in this “maanas” who could control his “manas”, rationalize and take decisions that are beyond the rudimentary desire of man, the animal.

But alas, I do not sympathize with a lover who cannot empathize with my “hridhay”. He failed to live up to the most basic expectation of a lover; to be loved.

And then I stopped dancing; when our lives parted those tacit emotions and the cravings to express those exclusively to anyone had almost vanished with no trace whatsoever...

It is springtime again and this beauty around has filled me with a perfect sense of exhilaration and delight. For today I can see life beyond love…love for a human.

I sense love in the fragrance of vivid flowers…flowers that seem to teach me to how to seek meaning in every relationship and at times not to seek so!

The “samudram” that preaches passionate living and ardent loving…

And thus to gather everything-ness in nothingness.
And rush towards the end as patiently as ever.

Elated I will leap always!"Sanjoli" is for-ever........for those who want to live.


(Sanjoli - Dawn, New Beginning)